pure heart.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

do you love me ?

Two more weeks to exams....
I strongly disbelieve that between a guy an a girl, there is no pure friendship. Me and danial is one good example, although he is a bit irritating sometimes. I don't understand why some people have such old fashioned thinking (not trying to talk bad abt anyone here).

A lot people ask me to give him a chance. They say that it is actually very 难得that he had like me for so long, and if i don't treasure him now, it will be too late. But i don't know....My parents, my friends and my teacher had actually gave me a lot of pointers. They all had different perspective. I don't know who to listen to...I want to give him a chance, but i don't know why until now i still have not done it yet. I hate to drag this matter any longer.

I think i will jus forget everything now first and wait till my end-of-year exam is over...

;6:05 PM

Thursday, September 9, 2010

do you love me ?

Tired..tired....tired...
Today, we went to the Keng Chiu's Happy Lodge to do CIP. So tired sia. Actually planning to wake up at 10, in the end i drag 15 mins more. I was late. Shit. Went downstairs wait for bus and in the end, bus 81 jus went past me. SHOOT! In the end took bus 21. Missed my stop. supposingly stopping at blk 233. In the end i went to tampines mall the bus stop. Walked all the way from der to NLB.

Wipe the windows from the second floor to the sixth floor. Had to stand on their beds coz too short!! sobsobs...wipe from 11.30 to 2. stop at the fifth floor. Went for lunch. Came back at three. Continue wiping. Finished wiping. Wipe the railings. Wipe till 5. Then go home. Sian....

;8:36 PM

Thursday, September 2, 2010

do you love me ?

There are different ways in which you look at things. The first way is to look at the positive side. Usually, i tend to look at both sides..Okays...Fine, i look more to the bad side most of the times. These few days i done a lot of thinking despite my loads of test. Sometimes, i question my own character. Im not a honest person. I allow people to cheat, i let them look at my answer. Im not being kind, im just....I also dun noe.

Relationships are hard to manage. Once you ignore that relationship for a period of time, it will slowly grow distant. Im not good at managing relationships, I'm always the "dun noe" and "anything" person. I don't even know that i hurt someone's else feelings. I dun noe how to mange my own feelings either. Sometimes, i make the people around me suffer. I try to figure out my own feelings too. I just can't face the reality and i try to avoid the truth. I dun wanna let go. There are many many things that i wanna tell but i cannot. If i tell, i will only make you and me feel worser....

I don't know.....I really don't know...Jus forget about **

;8:29 PM